Every year I attempt to make a few New Years resolutions. For 2011 I have my list written down in my polka-dotted planner, but yesterday afternoon I decided to add another goal.
Many times when I run alone I wear my i-pod. I think I convinced myself that this helps me run faster and that it keeps me focused. Fearing that the potential rain would leave me with a broken i-pod, I left the music at home yesterday and ventured out for my tempo run. I was amazed at how clearly I was able to think and reflect, just from hearing the sound of my own breathing. I could recognize that every step I was taking from a gift from my Father. The silence gave me a chance to pray and thank God for all of the blessings in my life.
I took a good, hard look and recognized that sometimes I try to hide behind music. Even if it is music that is edifying, I have noticed that I am guilty of using music as a way to stop thinking and dealing with life. It’s like I flick the power switch to off and my thoughts become empty and possibly even polluted. From yesterday’s simple run on the first day of the year I discovered that I have a greater desire to be motivated by God alone! Music can be amazing, helpful, encouraging, and powerful but I do not want to depend on it.While striving to have this attitude, I hope to appreciate music even more.
